Welcome to The Vault!! What is The Vault? It’s the latest Podcast Show that talks about everything under the sun. Nothing is left uncovered. We answer questions that you never thought about and we share our knowledge from our many exciting experiences. My Co-Host, Terry Au is an extreme sports enthusiast whom loves finance and the global markets which is super intelligent and he has a really good voice. Some says, soothing too.
It was Terry’s idea that we do a Podcast together after his bestie, Eveline decided that they do a Podcast together along with Annie. It’s called Spill The T.E.A. The Vault is our baby together. Hence, it’s going to be exciting and fun because of the energy levels we both bring to the table. We’re planning to go Live at Malaysia 10pm, Saturday Night which will be New York 10am, Saturday Morning. The Vault will be aired Live.
• New York Time Offset: UTC -4 • Malaysia Time Offset: UTC ++08
Come and join us on this new adventure. We will also be accepting calls during the Podcast too. Looking forward to hear from our listeners of course. It will be on YouTube, Instagram, Spotify, Facebook Live and Apple Podcasts. (This will be updated accordingly)
It can get pretty lonely for the most of us solo people during this pandemic. I think it’s been quite depressing for the most of us that can’t sit quietly for long periods of time. I have to admit that I miss going out and spending time with friends over meals or drinks. Just going out catching up and all. The extrovert in me is suffering. The WFH (Working From Home) part isn’t an issue for me as I’m used to SOHO environment since early 2017.
It’s driving me crazy now because the gym and pool is closed. Well, to be exact it’s been close since early May 2021. I miss working out at the gym. It gave me solitude from the craziness. What have you been doing to keep you sane when you’re stuck at home?
Do you think being solo during this time makes you stronger or makes you feel extra lonely as it makes you wish that you were in lockdown with someone? For me, I’m getting used to being alone as I’ve been living alone since early 2019. I still can’t imagine how I’ve survived this long living alone. LOL. Adulting solo. 😛 I think I may have said this before, my plan was always to be living with a partner. But, living alone thus far has been pretty awesome too. I have 2 furkids to keep me company so maybe I’m not completely alone.
I know, I’m a girl/lady and I have finally started to skateboard. Truth be told, it was something I always wanted to do since I was 9yrs old but, was too scared and well I couldn’t balance on the board when I tried previously. So, I ended up rollerblading then. There’s so may other things I’ve always wanted to pick up and maybe I would with this new take on life. Some of the things that I’ve always wanted to do are – snowboarding, surfing and dirtbike. I love extreme sports. Because I didn’t have a bike license and obviously didn’t get my hands on a dirtbike to do Motorcross, I ended up doing Autocross with my car when I had my license which lead me to racing semi-pro.
I got myself a Primitive skateboard. I love the graphic and the black trucks. So, how’s skateboarding been? I would say I’m actually impressed that I could stand up on the board and balance and move as well. LOL. Didn’t think I would pick up the basics that fast if I were to be honest. Maybe, I’m just naturally sporty so picking it up isn’t that difficult to me. I can’t wait to be able to do tricks and jump of things. I think it helps that I’m starting to live life without fear. My Mom’s passing definitely have woken up a new side in me.
I think one of the many things that I love about skateboarding is the balance you need and how technical it can get. I like that you can set up your deck/board to your own liking. I think the one thing I never knew until I started hanging out with skaters is that you’ll eventually break your board and you’ll run through shoes very fast.
I noticed that my left ankle was slightly sore after 2 days of skating so, I’ve placed an order for an ankle brace as I have the tendency to twist and hurt it. I hope with the brace, I will be able to do more. I’ve been spending lots of time checking out skating videos and is it crazy that I think I’ll be able to Ollie soon?
What’s an Ollie? Well, it’s when you can jump with your skateboard. It’s being explained better in the video below.
I feel that skateboarding is a good way to train your brain, have discipline plus it’s a good workout too with all the balancing and repetitions to perfect a trick/skill on the board. I finally can understand why skateboarding is a culture.
So, skateboarding is something new to me which brings me joy. What have you tried or taken up recently that makes you smile?
Saying your final goodbye is never easy. If I had to choose between bidding farewell and studying on end to take difficult exams for the rest of my life, I would choose the later. That just says alot about how difficult and how much I dread the inevitable farewell.
So, what do I wish I was taught or told about what losing a parent was like? I wish someone would have told me how difficult and painful it would be. I think every child that loves their parents dread the day that they have to bid that final goodbye. Well atleast it feels very final until we meet again. We can only hope for that, to be reunited with our loved ones on the opposite site.
Nothing prepared me for losing my Mom last year. Despite, secretly mourning her earlier on since she started suffering. Seeing her in pain was truly tough. The day she passed, I didn’t cry but, I remember that despite how physically exhausted I was that night, I couldn’t sleep a blink. I couldn’t explain why. Maybe, my body was adapting to the shock. Then the following 3 days, it was her Wake at the Church and then final goodbye and cremation. I cried during the final goodbye when they pushed her in to be cremated. That being said, I still went on days and weeks in denial that she’s gone despite knowing the truth. I just felt if I didn’t acknowledge it, it wouldn’t be true and I would still be able to hold her hand and talk to her.
My Mom was a huge part of my life since I was born because my Dad told my Mom to stop working and just look after the house and me and he would provide for the family. There was a point when I was around 10 when my Mom was considering to go back to work but, I remember I was so used and comfortable having her at home that I told her not to. I loved having my Mom there when I get home from school. Mom was a really good cook and she made it a point to clean the house, cook and do laundry. We only went out to eat on the weekends. She was a dedicated Homemaker, Wife and Mom. I really hope that I can be half of her when it comes to cooking and looking after the family. She has set the bar high in that department.
It’s been 6 months since she left and I’m still mourning her dearly. I find myself breaking down every now and then from missing her and wishing that I could have done more for her. I have to admit that when she was around and when she would nag me, I wished she would stop but now, I find myself missing her nagging. What I would do to have her nag me about my health, the way I look and so much more now. I know that she nagged because she cared and that was her way of making sure I was on the right track.
I wished I spent more time with her in the kitchen when she was still cooking as I took that for granted. I miss her Sabal Fried Fish, Herbal Soup and Japanese Cucumber with Lemon and Chili. I miss everything about my Mom. Now, whenever I hear that my friend’s Mom cooked this dish and that, I truly envy them. It also hurts when I hear that someone isn’t close to their parents. I find it difficult to understand because despite the differences and disagreements that I constantly had with my parents, I still love them very much and I just can’t imagine not spending whatever free time I had with them because I’ve always knew that they wouldn’t live forever despite I wish it wasn’t so.
We’re not promised tomorrow and when someone is gone, you can’t do anything about it then. Someone once said that we only regret the things we didn’t do and not the things that we did. Despite, spending all that time with my Mom, I still have regrets of the things that I couldn’t do for her because she truly deserves so much more.
I can tell you that with each passing day, the missing and wishing that they were still around doesn’t go away. It doesn’t get easier either but, you’ll eventually learn to adapt to the changes despite the huge void that they left behind. I’ve been trying to fill the void that my Mom left in my life with trying new things. I think I’ve experimented with so many new things including my look and the things that I’ve been laying of doing, I’m getting around to finally. I’m trying my best to continue living despite somedays, it feels like there’s nothing to look forward to. I miss talking to my Mom and telling her my daily experiences and encounters.
I don’t think anyone could ever tell you what to expect and what to do because the missing, the feelings comes in waves.