1st Year Anniversary…

18th Dec 2021 – A year since you left us Mom. How time has passed us by. It’s still surreal that you’re gone. I guess a huge part of me still doesn’t want to believe that it’s true. You’ve been missed dearly by everyone who were lucky enough to meet you. A kind soul that never thought twice in helping those in need, a true friend, a feisty and bubbly person and a loving, caring mother to me.

I know that you wished that I’d stop crying. Trust me, I wish I could but, the pain of knowing that you’re not around hurts a lot and it breaks me from time to time. The emotions comes in waves and when it does, it hits hard. So, please forgive me when I breakdown. It only meant that you left a huge impact on me, on many peoples’ lives.

How are things on the other side Mom? I hope that you’ve been coping well there. I always joke with Dad that you have alot of catching up with there with family and friends that left years ago. I hope that things on the other side has been good and that you’re happy. We’ll never stop missing you. I hope that you love the roses that Dad and I got for you and the Rose scented beeswax candle that I made for you.

XoXo, VA

I’m A Podcaster…

I think I can call myself a Podcaster right since I’ve done 3 episodes thus far with my Cohost, Terry? We did 1 episode each week for 3 weeks straight and we took a week break and then resume with Episode 4 last weekend. We have discussed:

  1. Does living apart keeps couples together?
  2. Why does some relationships ends and others last a lifetime?
  3. Why younger guys prefer dating older women?
  4. FWB. Good Idea? Does It Work? Is It For You?

The first 2 weeks was definitely a challenge as we experienced so many different technical issues. From echoes, video not working to even no sound. We even had to redo Episode 2 when Terry wasn’t happy with the outcome of the video/podcast. This is what it’s like working with a perfectionist. I know it very well as I myself am a perfectionist too but recent years, I’ve trained myself to just let things be as life’s not perfect and I just don’t like being stressed out.

Doing The Vault Podcast has gave me a new experience and it’s definitely been a new experience. I actually look forward to every Saturday, 10pm Malaysia time and 10am, New York as we get to talk and discuss our experiences and Point Of Views (POV) over random things. I can’t wait till Terry and I are finally in the same city so that we can meet in person and also do the Podcast across from each other. I can only imagine how much more fun it will be when that happens.

XoXo, VA

Playing Games…

People need to learn to stop playing games. It’s just not nice and it can be hurtful. They may think that it’s fun to them because they are not on the receiving end of things. Truth be told, it can really hurt and cause emotional damage or mental illness in the long run. Imagine if you’re being played, do you think you would like it?

This games can be as subtle like saying one thing, one day and going back on your words on another day. People might have cleared their schedules just to accommodate you in their plans. So, for a person to just change plans like changing underwear is a horrible thing to do unless there’s an emergency.

People really need to learn to treat others the way that they would like to be treated in return. At least, I have the decency to practice that on a daily basis. I hate hurting people because I’ve been on the receiving end many times in the past. Trust me when I say, it’s not pleasant and it really sucks. People’s feelings are fragile and once the damage has been done, sometimes you can’t reverse or take it back.

XoXo, VA

Falling In Love…

Falling in love, one of the most euphoric feelings you can have. We all fall in love at some point in time. Maybe some more than others. Signs that you’re falling in love are:

You feel adventurous

You’re intensely curious about them

You feel their pain

You’re full of date ideas

You forget your other priorities

You crave sex

You feel like moving really fast—or slow with them

You enjoy sex more

You’re more affectionate

You feel positive about the future

You worry about things

You’re glued to your phone

You can’t stop smiling

You feel more love for others

You daydream

You feel like a better person

You feel safe

With love, you’re taking a risk with your heart as we don’t know what this new found love holds for us, in a week, in 6 months time or years down the road. But, love is a risk worth taking as the famous quote from Alfred Lord Tennyson, “’tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” is particularly relevant.

Some relationships will last and others aren’t meant to. As hurtful as that may sound, I believe that we meet different people at different points in time for different reasons and purposes. Some will stick around through your difficult times and some will leave us with a broken heart. Some say that love is easy with the right person. I wouldn’t say easy but I would say that with the right person, it’s more worth your effort and time as they are atleast on the same page as you and they are also fighting by your side to make things work with you. Love definitely needs effort and nurturing for it to blossom into something that would lasts the test of time. But, whatever may come and happen, I believe that we all can learn a thing or two from the relationships that we’re in or was in at one point in time. So, it’s definitely not a waste of time hence I believe in giving your all or nothing at all when you want to be with someone.

XoXo, VA