Happy Birthday!! Mom. Today would have marked your 61st Birthday celebration. We would have gone out for a nice lunch/dinner and you would have gotten a present from me as always. That being said, I hope that you liked the Homemade Rose Essential Oil Beeswax Candle that I made for you and the Red Roses that Dad got for you today.
I spoke to Aunty Jasmine before seeing you and she mentioned to send you her love and that she misses you dearly when I saw you. She also mentioned that she hopes that you enjoyed the conversation she had with you. You’ve been gone for 1.5 years now and it hasn’t been easy for the most of us. As you know that I miss you and our conversations very dearly but, I’ve started to accept the fact that you’re in a better place and that you’re no longer suffering in pain. As you know, I’ve been better at living my life the way that you would have wanted. I’m coping the best way, that I could. I’m starting to learn to laugh and smile again. Keeping busy with running the multiple companies/businesses has been a much needed distraction.
Jimmy and Eddy also send their regards and they hope that you’re doing good up there. As you can tell that you left a huge impact even on my friends that you’ve only met once or twice. You are remembered dearly by many for the good aura that you always exuded and the kindness in your soul. You left a huge mark on this earth despite only being here for 59+ years. I’m proud that you are my Mom and I can only hope that I could be half the lady that you were – always helping those around her especially those that needed it. You were always giving, never a taker and your jokes truly light up the room. I love you Mom and I miss you so much. I hope that you’re having a good birthday celebration with your family and friends that are up there with you, laughing and just being the angel that you truly are.
Thank you for always looking out for me. It’s true that a parent’s bond with their child can’t and will never be broken. It’s an unconditional love that knows no boundaries.
I hope that this finds you well. I hope that you have learned to let go of the past, the pain and everything in between. The truth sometimes hurt but, it’s better to know the truth instead of living a lie. Well, atleast that’s how I choose to see things. My only request was to never lie to me no matter how difficult or hurtful it may be to tell me something; because being lied to, being deceived will hurt me more at the end of the day as it will come off as betrayal. Betrayal of my trust – in you, betrayal of my feelings as a person who truly cares about you. I was there for you when you needed me the most and you were there for me too, when it mattered, in the past. I think that time and moment is just… history now.
The little history that we shared for a brief moment in time. They say that we meet certain people in our lives for a reason, a passing moment and we may even learn a lesson or two from this encounter but, sometimes those people aren’t meant to be in our lives for the long run but, just for a passing moment.
Maybe, that was our fate. Remember the thin red string story that I told you about? The old Chinese belief? Maybe our strings were always tied to other people but, somehow we met each other for a brief moment because our strings got entangled by mistake. We were happy for a moment. Well, I know that I was truly happy. You gave me something to look forward to, maybe even a future. Whatever you may want to call it… I am thankful for the time and moments that we had. The tough ones and the good ones as it felt like we truly cared about each other and we would have withstand the test of time and whatever that may come. You even said that, with me you felt that you could finally be yourself, no need for lies which was refreshing as I’ve always accepted you for you.. No judgements about your past, the present and the future.
28th of October 2021 would have been my parents’ 38th Wedding Anniversary. They met when my Mom was 18 and my Dad was 24. The duration of them being together is one thing but what matters more was how they were like together all those years – how they handled their differences and the tough times together. It only made their relationship stronger than ever with every obstacle they faced. The biggest thing was how difficult it was when Mom couldn’t walk at the end of June 2020 and she eventually became bedridden. How my Dad looked after her without any help from any Caregiver only proof how much he truly loved Mom till her last breath. That’s true love.
When You Say Nothing At All was my Mom’s favourite song. Mom, this is for you. We miss you so much if you don’t already know.
My parents’ relationship gives me hope that true love exists and that I’d be lucky to someday meet someone that could truly love me and stay with me no matter what because they truly loved me and that we could work through things together no matter how tough they may be ego being put aside because our relationship matters more than anything else.
Falling in love, one of the most euphoric feelings you can have. We all fall in love at some point in time. Maybe some more than others. Signs that you’re falling in love are:
You feel adventurous
You’re intensely curious about them
You feel their pain
You’re full of date ideas
You forget your other priorities
You crave sex
You feel like moving really fast—or slow with them
You enjoy sex more
You’re more affectionate
You feel positive about the future
You worry about things
You’re glued to your phone
You can’t stop smiling
You feel more love for others
You feel like a better person
You feel safe
With love, you’re taking a risk with your heart as we don’t know what this new found love holds for us, in a week, in 6 months time or years down the road. But, love is a risk worth taking as the famous quote from Alfred Lord Tennyson, “’tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” is particularly relevant.
Some relationships will last and others aren’t meant to. As hurtful as that may sound, I believe that we meet different people at different points in time for different reasons and purposes. Some will stick around through your difficult times and some will leave us with a broken heart. Some say that love is easy with the right person. I wouldn’t say easy but I would say that with the right person, it’s more worth your effort and time as they are atleast on the same page as you and they are also fighting by your side to make things work with you. Love definitely needs effort and nurturing for it to blossom into something that would lasts the test of time. But, whatever may come and happen, I believe that we all can learn a thing or two from the relationships that we’re in or was in at one point in time. So, it’s definitely not a waste of time hence I believe in giving your all or nothing at all when you want to be with someone.