I hope that you are doing well wherever you may be now. I hope that you’re smiling and laughing because that’s how I want to remember you. Despite what you say, I always thought that you had a charming smile and I was addicted to your laughter as it was a form of assurance that I was doing something right. I’ve always wished that you could see you from my perspective and eyes because you were perfect to me. You were my perfect imperfection.
I will forever be grateful for the time and moments that we shared together. When you loved, I felt it as it made me feel warm and safe when you were by my side. I remember how it felt like to see my phone screen lights up and I see your name appear, it always made my day. The excitement was a piece of bliss to me. Also, everything I did I thought about you and us and every decision was made to include you. That was how important you were in my life.
The sacrifices you made for me, for us meant the world to me. Maybe I didn’t get to tell you enough. Thank you for being you. I’m sorry for failing you or hurting you in any possible way. Please know that it was the last thing I wanted to do.
You know you’re passionate about what you do when you get excited to wake up each morning and start your day. When you feel that there isn’t enough hours in a day to do what you love doing, that’s also a sign that you’re truly passionate about it. Sometimes to a point where money isn’t a huge factor just because you enjoy and love what you do. I wish everyone could feel that way about what they do each day because it makes life more enjoyable and fun. Though not many are that lucky as some of us have to hustle to make ends meet.
I first felt this deep passion about my job in 2013 when I first had my taste of Recruitment. I truly enjoyed picking up the phone and reaching out to candidates. I work through my off days and holidays because I truly enjoyed working and I just didn’t want to stop. I remember later that year, I had to deal with my most painful breakup ever as well. I was in love and I had so much hope to a point I was ready to leave the country that I called home to start a new journey in a foreign one. That actually lead me to try recruitment when I got headhunted earlier that year because of the connection the company had with a sister company in Denmark. It actually felt like things were meant to be or so I thought.
Well, 8 years later, I’m still in Recruitment. Am I still passionate about it? I am. Also, the ex and I are still Text Friends despite it having been years since our relationship ended. We’ve been cordial with each other. I know many feel uncomfortable talking to an ex. For me, I think if you’ve had closure and have no lingering feelings anymore, it’s alright. I’m a lil sad that he still haven’t found a new gf since we last dated. According to him, I’ve set the bar pretty high. I dunno whether to feel sad for him or happy knowing that I have left such an impact after so many years. 😛